HOPE IS FADING FAST???

GONE BUT GONE WHERE

I have recently made some major decisions in my life and have felt good about them but there is always doubt. Age sneaks up on us and for those of us that are FAT and our bodies have been through several deaths and resurrections. My plan in life was to retire when I was 55 and now I'm 59, almost 60 years OLD! Good grief, that's old. I'll be on social security in two years and a little more than 3 months!!! Good grief!!!!

Growing up, in my family retirement was the time when you didn't have to work any more. You had all the money you needed. You could get a full tube of crickets and go fishing. You wouldn't have to tell anyone. I'm sitting at my desk doing the blog thing, I've got a broken leg that I walked around on for 4 months before discovering, I've gained 10 pounds because I can't do my usual workouts and i wonder if I'll ever run again. I find myself trying to take care of other people when I can't take care of myself. My life gets shorter every day because i can't do what I think I should be able to do or what I expect that I can do.

I found this today and it really expresses a lot of how I feel.

"I'm 76 and I'm Tired"I'm 76. Except for brief period in the 50's when I was doing my National Service, I've worked hard since I was 17. Except for some some serious health challenges, I put in 50-hour weeks, and didn't call in sick in nearly 40 years. I made a reasonable salary, but I didn't inherit my job or my income, and I worked to get where I am. Given the economy, it looks as though retirement was a bad idea, and I'm tired. Very tired.

I'm tired of being told that I have to "spread the wealth" to people who don't have my work ethic. I'm tired of being told the government will take the money I earned, by force if necessary, and give it to people too lazy to earn it.

I'm tired of being told that Islam is a "Religion of Peace," when every day I can read dozens of stories of Muslim men killing their sisters, wives and daughters for their family "honor"; of Muslims rioting over some slight offense; of Muslims murdering Christian and Jews because they aren't "believers"; of Muslims burning schools for girls; of Muslims stoning teenage rape victims to death for "adultery"; of Muslims mutilating the genitals of little girls; all in the name of Allah, because the Qur'an and Shari'a law tells them to.

I'm tired of being told that out of "tolerance for other cultures" we must let Saudi Arabia and other Arab countries use our oil money to fund mosques and madrassa Islamic schools to preach hate in Australia , New Zealand , UK, America and Canada , while no one from these countries are allowed to fund a church, synagogue or religious school in Saudi Arabia or any other Arab country to teach love and tolerance..

I'm tired of being told I must lower my living standard to fight global warming, which no one is allowed to debate.I'm tired of being told that drug addicts have a disease, and I must help support and treat them, and pay for the damage they do. Did a giant germ rush out of a dark alley, grab them, and stuff white powder up their noses or stick a needle in their arm while they tried to fight it off?

I'm tired of hearing wealthy athletes, entertainers and politicians of all parties talking about innocent mistakes, stupid mistakes or youthful mistakes, when we all know they think their only mistake was getting caught. I'm tired of people with a sense of entitlement, rich or poor.

I'm really tired of people who don't take responsibility for their lives and actions. I'm tired of hearing them blame the government, or discrimination or big-whatever for their problems. I'm also tired and fed up with seeing young men and women in their teens and early 20's be-deck them selves in tattoos and face studs, thereby making themselves un-employable and claiming money from the Government.

Yes, I'm damn tired. But I'm also glad to be 76.. Because, mostly, I'm not going to have to see the world these people are making. I'm just sorry for my granddaughter and her children. Thank God I'm on the way out and not on the way in.

Well I'll end by saying I'm tired but I'm also FEED UP, and that is a blog for another time.